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Deja Vu

Among all the others,
You are the one who glitters.
Why is it like this?
Can’t be explained, I even wonder.

My companions just don’t know,
That in my diary, thou art my soul.
Thou hath been long in my mind,
And in my mind, thou shalt forever glow.

Hard to forget thy ever gestures,
Thy green jewel-like eyes, with slight pressure.
Hard to forget thy mild smile,
Just like in summer, the sunny leisure.

I said to myself, that I need to move on from you,
But till today, I have still never got through,
Actually, I just want my time with you, to be a ‘deja vu’!

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Expectation vs Reality

‘Fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you. who understands you even in the madness; someone who helps you, and guides you, someone who is your support, your hope. fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight. Fall in love with someone who misses you and wants to be with you. Do not fall in love only with a body or with a face; or with the idea of being in love.’
(Various sources)

This is quite a good quote about falling in love, and quotes like this, makes me want to believe in love again. It makes me want to believe that love is about finding a person who cares about you, who would understand you, and who is always there for your when you need. In other words, it’s about finding a person who shares mutual love with you, despite what the physical circumstances might be, such as geographical locations and other things. Yes, love is not about having a checklist or scoresheet rating your lover: where he lives, how much he earns, what languages he speaks, how tall he is (e.g. oh no, he lives quite far away, so I’d better not even try; oh no, he hasn’t got a proper job, no!!; oh no, he doesn’t speak my first language, then how would he be able to communicate with my friends and family?!; oh no, he just missed 175cm!)……… it should be about how you feel, and not just the numbers you have on your checklist!

Yep, while the above sounds romantically sensible, this is not how it works nowadays. The physical requirements can be real deal breakers nowadays, no matter how much you are willing to invest/ sacrifice/ commit to a relationship. Not fitting the bill can be seen as recipe for disaster…. well, distance is obviously the major culprit I would guess. The quote at the very beginning, while looking nice, gives people false hope on how a relationship would work. Reality checks in, and stabs you right at the heart, and leaves you bleeding on the cold, hard ground.

Dreams, are my reality
I like to dream of you close to me.
I dream of loving in the night
And loving seems alright
Although it’s only fantasy.
                                                   (Richard Sanderson, Reality)

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend,
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, tell me,
Is this the end.
    (Lily Allen)

It is way too idealistic to believe that beautiful things last forever. No, they don’t. Something that’s beautiful, like fireworks, or sky-writing, isn’t meant to last forever, but just long enough for people appreciate. Everything is like a fireflies, which glow and dim.

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing,
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing.
                            (Lily Allen)

We all want to go back to a time when ‘everything is great’, when we were happier. However, the happier time we had, the sadder it is to reminisce. Being nostalgic about the past, surely prevents one to move on, by sending him/ her to his/ her imagination-land, leaving him/ her to chase the ‘shadow’.

Some people handle love and never try
I can almost fly with your wings to set me high.
                                             (Daoko)

Drink up one more time, and I’ll make you mine
Keep you apart, deep in my heart. (Elliot Smith)

A perfect partner, is one with whom you can honestly be yourself, because there is no point to wear a mask for fake impression.

I believe if there’s any kind of God it wouldn’t be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there’s any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.
                                                 (Before Sunrise)

Well, perfect communication is impossible, as seen from the quote above. There must be conflicts arising between to people, if they are perfectly honest with each other. Just because everyone has different perspectives in things and shares different personal values, life is worthwhile. That is why love is magical and can be the most beautiful thing, because it can bring two completely separate, and distinct people together, through attempting to reach agreements in many things. Well, love is certainly difficult to obtain though, and can often stab people right at the heart, because people tend to put high hope on their imagined romantic life, while the reality is usually not what they expect. Expectation and reality don’t go along well, just like mentos and coca cola.

A romantic would believe distance won’t matter;
A realist would deny the possibility of long-distance relationships.
Anyway, thou art always that tender and sweet girl,
Saved within the gentle closure of my chest.

On Earth, there is no one better than Emam Watson.

In terms of acting, she is undoubtedly the best actress in the world, with her sweet smiles, cute voice, awesomely posh accent….With Emma Watson, there is no point for the same film having another actors/ actresses, because she can make the film good without any help.

Apart from her career, she is still a decent woman, always smiling to everyone, doing good deeds, helping to make the world a fairer place for everyone…. She is definitely a heroine, an angel, the saver of the world.

Everything she says is the words of wisdom; her good deeds are enough to make herself a goddess; she is just a legend!

Lottery-> Who doesn’t know it is almost impossible to win big money from it?
£1 to buy a chance of being a millionaire, it is not a lot, but it is wiser to save it for food and things, which we basically need.

LOL! The aim of lottery is not for people to practically get rich. It is not an activity for people to burn their money; not a ticket for people to revive (to live another life), a chance for people to fantasise about winning the lottery before the results come out.

What would you do ‘when’ you won the million dollars/ pounds?
Study/ work-free life, partying everyday, living in a castle, travelling around the world (or maybe the space as well), hiring celebrities to appear in your party, and probably never calculating the maximum amount of money you can use in a day……..

Nowadays people fight loads of obstacles just to get a job; working like a bull just to earn enough to make a living. Now you can use a quid, to buy a dream, or fantasy, what a fair deal!

So we should not be pissed that we don’t win. We should be thankful to the National Lottery for allowing us to spend a quid on a never-ending dream. Winning, is just a bonus.

So Leicester finally won the Premier League title. Before the season started, or even at the half of season, no one would have expected them to win. It was just like horses which win a donkey derby do not win a grand national. But they proved that it is possible. Well done Leicester.

It has been quite an exciting season. As I suggested in my previous post about the Premier League, the traditionally ‘good’ teams all play rubbish this season, they are entirely trash.  I’d rather watch Watford, Norwich, Crystal Palace, and Bornemouth, at least they try and play as  a team!

The league table proved my point, that the famous teams like MU, Chelsea, Liverpool….. they were not even close to the top. Well it is good though, that Leicester won the title. They have been playing so well in every game so they deserve it. But it will be hard to imagine how they will do in UEFA Champions League next season, against teams like Barcelona or Bayern Munich? Well they will prepare well for it I think! Hope Watford would win the Premier League next season!

So this year on the Valentine’s Day, my girlfriend and I planned to go out for dinner. When she finished her uni classes, she came to mine to pick me up. Suddenly, she said she needed a poop. She went to the toilet for a long long time, then I asked what’s wrong. Holy moly, she blocked the toilet with her sXXX. I then went to fix it.

She kept saying sorry, and I couldn’t stop laughing because it’s the first time I see this kind of events. It was going well, until I said ‘So this proves you are not perfect.’ as a joke. She asked why, I replied ‘BECAUSE GODDESSES NEVER POOP, AND BLOCK THE TOILET WITH THEIR SHIT, BECAUSE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PERFECT! HAHAHA!’ as a way to tease.

She got angry as an angry bird, from the time we went out, she never spoke a word. I was like playing a single game, it’s not multiplayer anymore. I finally couldn’t hold it, and asked ‘Hey, I am sorry, it was just a joke. What do I have to do to have you talking to me again?’

She pointed to a Pikachu doll in the toy shop, and said ‘Okay, so you have to pretend you are a Pikachu for the rest of the day, then we have words.’

Be a pikachu? LOL that’s a terrible request. But well, as a hopelessly romance cheeseball, I would take it.

‘Pika Pika! (Okay Okay)’ I said. From this moment, I told myself, that I am a Pikachu.

We walked, and walked. She suddenly asked ‘Yep, so where should we go for dinner tonight?’ I answered ‘Pikachu? Pika Pika Pi! (I was actually thinking The Bobbin, but I was just expecting that she would ask me to resign from my post as a ‘Pikachu’ as she does not understand what I said. However, she replied ‘Okay, Bobbin sounds good!’

Oh My Lord! She knew what I said? Did she just guess it randomly? I decided to try her with a few words.

‘Pika Pi! (Motherfker!)’, I said. She was shocked, and asked ‘Why do you swear? Swearing to me?’

Oh my lord in a box! She knew what I said! I immediately replied ‘Pika Pika Pi! (No, no no!) in a shaky voice.

So we went to Bobbin. Because it was the Valentine’s Day, it was quite full. I was even more nervous. If I kept being a ‘Pikachu’, people would notice and laugh at me. If I didn’t, a break-up is on its way.

We went to the bar to order food. It was my turn after my girlfriend ordered. I was thinking what do to. Suddenly, I had an idea, and said ‘Pi, Pi!’ to the bar-man. He looked confused, but then asked me whether I meant ‘beef, beer’. I nodded my head. Yep, done!

As we ate, I talked to my girlfriend as if I was a Pikachu. As we were about to leave, I looked at the people around us, maybe they actually thought that my girlfriend was having a dinner with a Pikachu.

We decided to go for a walk after the meal. As I walked, I felt like I had no dignity at all, and became the shame of mankind. But I looked at the girl next to me, apart from being silly making me doing some idiotic things, she is actually quite nice. (Sigh), this time she asked me to be a Pikachu, last time she asked me to be Donald Duck, what about next time…..?

She suddenly stopped walking, and whispered to me, saying ‘Thank you for being with me all the time. I hope you can be my Pokemon, forever, and ever!’

I felt so touched after this. And replied ‘Pika Pi (Thank you)’ and tears started running in my eyes.

Oh wait, tears seemed to come too quickly, that everything became blurred. I couldn’t see anything!

‘Pi! Pika? Pikachu?’ (Hey! Why? Where are you?)

‘Pikachu???’ (Where are you???)

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I woke up, staring at the ceiling, finding I got tears in my eyes.

I looked at the calendar, 14/02/2016 it is.

Just when I thought i found the love of my life, it was actually a dream.
I went to the window, looking at the snow outside, thinking back to the dream,
I inhaled as much as I could, then shouted to the window
‘Pi..ka..chu! (FML)’

(The End)

Happy Valentine’s Day guys, or Independence Day to the Single Ones.

 

 

There is a type of girls who like to touch you when they speak to you.

They are usually nice people, with beauteous smiles like the sunshine, and make you feel comfortable when you spend time with them.

Sometimes when they speak to you, they will touch you (no matter whether they actually mean it), like touching your hand, or pet your shoulder. And when you make jokes, they will show a genuine happy smile.

Sometimes if you are like the most single person in the universe, your talent of ‘Final Fantasy’ might be triggered, and think that they are flirting with you by touching you. And then, the truth is, you just think too much. They never have any intentions. And  you end up entering the ‘army’ of the girl.

It’s Valentine’s Day soon, well, guys, wake up! Don’t live in your final fantasy! It’s just a day when chocolate is on discount!