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Lottery-> Who doesn’t know it is almost impossible to win big money from it?
£1 to buy a chance of being a millionaire, it is not a lot, but it is wiser to save it for food and things, which we basically need.

LOL! The aim of lottery is not for people to practically get rich. It is not an activity for people to burn their money; not a ticket for people to revive (to live another life), a chance for people to fantasise about winning the lottery before the results come out.

What would you do ‘when’ you won the million dollars/ pounds?
Study/ work-free life, partying everyday, living in a castle, travelling around the world (or maybe the space as well), hiring celebrities to appear in your party, and probably never calculating the maximum amount of money you can use in a day……..

Nowadays people fight loads of obstacles just to get a job; working like a bull just to earn enough to make a living. Now you can use a quid, to buy a dream, or fantasy, what a fair deal!

So we should not be pissed that we don’t win. We should be thankful to the National Lottery for allowing us to spend a quid on a never-ending dream. Winning, is just a bonus.

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One day, I was in the toilet, trying not to flush down the chocolate treasure I just produced with all my sweat and tears, after not being able to produced any for a whole damn week. That little poop, despite being extra-ordinary unlovely, spent many valuable, yet maybe ordinary, years with my  intestine.

Can I really forget what we have been through together?

Without a healthy-me, there wouldn’t be the little poop; without the little poop, there wouldn’t be a healthy-me. Is this special relationship comprehensible (digestible?) for any normal people?

At this moment, I remember someone told me ‘Sometimes, you are to dedicated to a things. You need to learn how to lift something down after you pick it up when it is the right time.’

BUT, do you know why I’m so dedicated? Everytime when I am lost, where are you? You said you’d always be here for me!  I’ve always been putting pressure in myself, because it has always been the little things in life that get me through tough time, and I cannot bear to say good-bye to the little things!

At that time, I heard the birds chanting outside, and I understood something: Everything has got where it belongs to, just like Richard Gere and Debra Winger have to go up where they belong in ‘An Officer and a Gentleman’ (1982) If I kept the poop in the toilet, it would be me being too selfish. It should really go back to the sea, and encounter another little poop, to open up a new chapter in life.

Thinking about this, tears went around my eyes, and I flushed the toilet, to farewell the little poop. I wore my trousers, leaving the toilet like a pro. And as I went, I finally found out, I had never wiped my butt!

There is a type of girls who like to touch you when they speak to you.

They are usually nice people, with beauteous smiles like the sunshine, and make you feel comfortable when you spend time with them.

Sometimes when they speak to you, they will touch you (no matter whether they actually mean it), like touching your hand, or pet your shoulder. And when you make jokes, they will show a genuine happy smile.

Sometimes if you are like the most single person in the universe, your talent of ‘Final Fantasy’ might be triggered, and think that they are flirting with you by touching you. And then, the truth is, you just think too much. They never have any intentions. And  you end up entering the ‘army’ of the girl.

It’s Valentine’s Day soon, well, guys, wake up! Don’t live in your final fantasy! It’s just a day when chocolate is on discount!

I’ve heard people saying ‘If you have a little bit of Mathematics background, you’ll know that it is basically impossible to win the National Lottery, so you will not spend money on the Lottery.’ This, is entirely, BULLCRAP! National Lottery, to me, is NOT a bet, but a ticket for me to revive! If you ask me what are the best way for a person to move from working class to middle/ top class, I’d say the opportunities have always been hiding in the National Lottery. £1,000,000 is not a small number, and what can you do with it? It allows you to keep thousands of dogs, get approximately 1142857 cans of beer, 20,000,000 plastic bags when you go shopping……

10, 12, 35, 46, 48, 57, 14, these seven reviving numbers have been stored in my mind, while I am checking my revival tickets whether it has got those 7 numbers. The excitement is comparable to  parents looking at their children being born! Seeing I have got 10, feeling like a new born life is coming out; I got 12, I start to plan I will quit my job tomorrow; 35 on my ticket, I arrange a house viewing for the Downton Abbey; 46 appears too, so I have a least 4 numbers on my reviving ticket! I start to consider the pros and cons of Lamborghini and Ferrari. Then I have a look, I even get 48. I phone my friend asking what it costs to get Bryan Adams, and George Clooney to advertise for my birthday party. And wait…. Bingo, I get 57 as well! Bingo!

Somehow, I manage to get all the six numbers right. How-bloody-ever, life is never that simple. These six numbers, are printed on six separate tickets. The situation is like…. When you get on a bus, you never have Amanda Seyfried sitting next to you, but some stinky old guys; When you get to a University course with loads of fit birds, but they are all taken. My attempts to revive have always failed, never really get the luck.

Yep, it’s just investing the right thing on the wrong places. Having known this and calmed myself, I walk out of the shop, and phone my friend Jon.
Me: Dear Jon, I believe it will be better tomorrow!
Jon: Oh you won the lottery? Or else why would it be better tomorrow?
Me: LOL It will be better because we still fking have to work tomorrow! YAY!

 

Just a thought about lottery, never really bet on it in real life! 🙂

There are many people out there saying ‘Romance films are boring, non-sense, and only lead to your “Final Fantasy”‘ People who think like this are too naïve, and haven’t lived long enough to see the reality of the world.

You have to have enough experience in the world, e.g. being tricked/ friendzoned  by the girl you like, before you truly admire a ‘romance’ work. A romance work, is a world where a man and woman can love each other freely, neglecting the limitation of the reality: If you two like each other, you can be together; if you fancy a couple of birds, you can work on those simultaneously and see which one work out the best; if you two just have physical needs, you can be friends with benefits. Yes it’s unrealistic, but why do you not think about it this way: Can the reality in which we live in, give us the happiness that we can obtain from those romance story? In the world of romance, it is not like ‘there is no negativity like hates, jealousy and the ugliness of human being’, it is just that every character can express themselves honestly, expressing the full love or hate, unlike in the real world, everyone lives within his hoods, hiding his real thoughts, escaping from the social network.

Fantasy exists in everyone’s heart, romance work is not place for you to escape from the real world, but a place to let you feel the happiness that the real world cannot give you. So, romance will teach you something wrong about the real world? Then, detective stories will teach you to commit crime, right? ‘Hunger Games’ teaches you to be selfish? If you don’t have self-control, you will probably learn to abuse animals after watching Pokémon. Listening to people who are against the genre of Romance, I have absolutely No Comment.

Being taken over by The Fear

Lily Allen’s The Fear can probably be crowned The National Anthem of the 21st Century.

‘I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them’

These opening lines cannot be more real. People nowadays don’t give a crap about anything other than money. It’s easy to say we shouldn’t be too materialistic, but it’s hard to put this principle into life. At the end of the day, money means power, and it gives you a very comfortable life. It’s difficult, if not impossible, not to be engulfed by the greed inside us. Again, at the end of the day, ‘I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner’.

‘And I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cause everyone knows that’s how you get famous.’

This is exactly the view of the majority people I believe. We don’t seem to care how we get money, we don’t care about whether it’s ethic to do something in exchange of fame, glory, and eventually money. Is it the correct mindset? I don’t know. Living in a corrupted world, I don’t know what is real, and what I meant to feel anymore.

And here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25QrnxD-NB4 you get to hear the great national anthem of the 21 century.


I do admire Lily Allen’s ability to write lyrics in a very very poetic form (at least to me it is so poetic). But the most important thing, is I think she does write people’s heart. I personally think, she did write a lot that reflects my life. The Fear is one of them, The Littlest Things… ehm… I may probably have encountered something similar.

Well, listening to Lily Allen’s at least gives me some comfort, so I know there are people outside who could still see the truth.

‘Sometimes I find myself sittin’ back and reminiscing,
especially when I have to watch other people kissin
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end’

Having the ‘Friendzone Military rank’ in mind (which I will repost at the end of this entry), we know a friendzone occupation is like a real job, you can either get promoted or relegated. As in the real military rank, your ‘Goddess’ does not get many ‘General’s (Boyfriend), while she can probably be surrounded by a bunch of soldiers (most likely infantry and Arrow Army).

In order to get promotion, you can choose to do it actively by confessing yourself in different ways. This takes an awful lot of courage to do, but is very unlikely to succeed. Why? Because if you are the one she likes, you would have been automatically promoted before you even have to make a move. The other are unlikely to get even a date to try. But if you don’t confess, this will like a never-ending situation: you see your Goddess making out of other people, and you get jealous….. never ever ending. And… ‘Jealousy, turning Saints into the Sea’ as the Killers sang in Mr. Brightside.

Therefore, you somehow need to apply for the occupation of a General, although it is more than likely to end in a rejection. What happens next in the event of a rejection? Back off! If you don’t want yourself to get stuck in the never-ever-ending friendzone and keep getting jealous from time to time, back off! Why? For certain, she will get a general one day, and you don’t really want to see this, unless you can wholly give it up. And you know, one day, the General will evolve into the King (the husband), and your Goddess will be the Queen (the wife), and they will have a happy life somewhere with some princes and princesses. They will really ‘Rule the World’, oh, no, not the world, but your world. Well isn’t that what you ‘want’ though? Getting her happy by serving her whenever she needs?

Whether you should jump off the boat and quit the friendzone, and end the friendship (not really preferable though), depends on the situation. Well, it can be a hard decision to decide. A friendship can be a base of a relationship and it gives you hope sometimes. If you don’t resign from your post though, jealousy will likely to come to the way at certain point of your life.

Well it is nothing wrong to hand in your ‘application form’ to be a General, as after that, you can know what to do next depending on the situation. But just like applying for university, always know when to apply, what is the entry requirement, and prepare for the ‘interview’ (if you are lucky enough to get a date). Don’t be shy, go and try. Good luck to everyone willing to be the General of the Apple of your eyes!

Friendzone Rank:

1: Infantry–> only serves the ‘Goddess’, but cannot do anything to her.
2: Navy –> richer than ‘Infantry’, using money and gifts to maintain relationship with the ‘Goddess’.

3: Horse soldier –> Can have the qualities of ‘infantry’ or ‘navy’, or both, but gets to be the ‘friend with benefits’ with the ‘Goddess’. Is also the highest rank of soldiers.
4: Arrow army –> Long distance relationship with the ‘Goddess’, using text/ Skype/ Facebook to contact, possibly haven’t even seen the ‘Goddess’ in real life.
5: Wizards (Evil): Getting alcohol or drugs to get benefits from the ‘Goddess’

The Royal Family:
1. King –> Husband of your ‘Goddess’
2. Queen –> Your ‘Goddess’ after Marriage
3. General –> Boyfriend of your Goddess
4. Prince/ Princess –> Children of your Goddess

Mainstream

Sometimes in life, our behaviours are bounded by what the mainstream of people do, as you think, if you do something different, you’ll be labelled as being ‘odd’, and being in the ‘outgroup’. It’s just like when you are in the English lecture, and you’re doing your French homework, people would assume that you don’t belong to the English group, thus being a little bit odd.

Well, following the mainstream is somehow correct, in certain situation, only when you think it is the right thing to do. But it does not necessarily mean that if you don’t follow the majority of people, you are wrong. For example, if you’re in a party, and everyone is smoking weeds, you might end up being the outgroup if you don’t do what they do, but it is in many ways correct for you not to smoke.

Pressure from the mainstream affects what we do, and how we act. Just like in the lyrics of ‘Stacy’s Mom’, it says ‘I know it might be wrong, but I’m in love with Stacy’s Mom’. Why does it have to say ‘I know it might be WRONG’ for falling in love with Stacy’s Mom? For it is just a feeling, it is not morally wrong, or would not really harm anyone. Take it the other way round, I assume if someone says Stacy in the video is pretty, he might be condemned for being a ‘pervert’, because Stacy is too young. Well, in this case, I think it’s nothing wrong for people to admire Stacy, if he does not make any move. However, the perception or awareness of being condemned would somehow limit what people say.

Thoughts of the mainstream limit what we say, what we do, and how we think. Therefore, we will end up leaving too much being unsaid, being undone, and not being thought about. So, with all those limitations going on, how do we achieve freedom? Sometimes, we all need a time, to get a cup of tea, and think, as if we are the only ones in the world, and being unaware of the mainstream, and then come up with things that we really want to do, and that’s how we achieve true happiness, just like a salmon swimming upstream, to achieve its goal.

Fragments of memories

American singer Kelly Clarkson has a song called ‘A moment like this’, which says A moment like this, some people wait a lifetime.

Yes, life is often composed of the past, of the memories we have, for certain moments that we always want to remember. After having read quite much Romantic literature (in terms of Romantic period), I can see that most writers at that time agreed with that too. Take my favourite poet John Keats as an example, in his poem Bright Star (which is one of my favourite poems of his), he was trying to capture the moment, that he was leaning towards his girlfriend Fanny Browne; in his Ode to a Nightingale, he was trying to turn the moment that he saw the nightingale into literature. Everyone has different moments that he wants to remember: the happy ones, the sad ones, the romantic ones, the hilarious ones, the touching ones…….. But it has to be unique, and probably special.

Well, do we actually live in the past, or the present? (I think we can neglect the possibility of living in the future as we are not Marty in Back to the Future) We all live in the past. If we think about it this way, life is just composed of all the fragments of memories we had, the ‘present’ that we see, is just going to turn to the past, to the history in the next second, just like Jimmy Hendrix said ‘The story if life is quicker than the wink of an eye), the present does not mean much as it turns to the past too quick. That is probably why my favourite Romantic writer John Keats, immersed himself into describing the memories he had, trying to re-collect some of the best moments he had, with the ‘words brighter than bright, and fairer than fair’ (when he described Fanny in his letter) If, I can travel back in time, I would also like to go through certain moments in my life again. (And of course I would like to visit Keats, as he is sometimes my inspiration of writing.) And the following piece of writing, is for me to remember a friend who is going back home soon. (I rarely write poems, so I am not sure if it is a good one)

Forlorn! Forlorn!
For thou art gone.
Lasting fragments I get,
When thou art back for dawn.

Eternal Sunshine with the waking dream,
Woken by the hateful gleam.
Go back where you belong,
We are fish in different streams.  

Since the ‘yes’ votes lost, I have been thinking about whether my immigration plan would still work. I just can’t be so positive for it. I just don’t think there is a high chance that the plan that my family and I worked out would work. I thank them for their massive support, as I am the first priority for the immigration plan, as they know that I love Europe, and going back to Hong Kong would be like putting a salmon back onto the beach (i.e. it would suffer). We aim at 3 types of visa which would allow me to stay in the UK for 10 years, then I could get into the citizenship:

Tier 1 (Entrepreneur):
This plan requires you to invest £200,000 to run a business, and the business has to work for 3 years before you can extend the visa to more years. This is still the main part of the plan, however, I would quite feel sorry for my parents. It is their money, they earned it with a lot of work and sweat. ALTHOUGH they want to use it to give a chance for all of us to move here, I am not sure if it is a good idea to risk that amount of money. Besides, after the general election next year, there is a chance that they are restricting the rule too, so I am not sure if we can even afford it.

Tier 2 (General)
This is the plan that I aimed at, but I am super UNCONFIDENT about it. I need to get a job with annual salary more that £24,000, and the company who hired me has to show that there is NO other EU candidates who can fill in this role (I think the immigration rule is a bit of a racist) I just don’t see how I can get it….

Tier 4 (Student)
Being a student for 10 years? Aye, the ideal case, IF the 8-year-cap (limit that you can’t stay in university for mroe than 8 years on student visa) This is not gonna work in my opinion…

My mum joked about marrying a British girl would allow me to stay here. Aye, it is true, but it is hard. If any of the reader of this post is inetested, give me a shout and we will see if we have chemistry. (Lol!)

As I have mentioned in one of my previos posts, I love Scotland. I can’t imagine what it woudl be like if I am forced to leave: remember every previous memory here: the scene that I first came here, the friends I got here, the silly jokes I share with my friends here, and how I started table-tennis here, going nightouts…………… I think I would burst into tears if I am forced to leave those memories.

If I cannot get to stay here, I would go to Sweden (probably one of the easies EU countries to immigrate, with many people speaking English too), get a EU passport, then (if UKIP does not succeed), then I would still be able to come back to this amazing land as a EU Citizen and stay for long.

Scotland, is my first love (in terms of countries). I am sure there are other good countries I would like out there, like Belgium, and Germany. But my first love, is always gonna be Scotland, and so, it will need to be my home.