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It is Chinese New Year, and here I share one of my favourite Chinese tunes! Enjoy!

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Paper Plane

As I looked into the sky, I saw a jet gliding to the east.
I looked down to my wrist, seeing her given beads.
Memories of her rush to my melancholic mind,
She is already long gone, I should heed.

I picked up a paper, and made a paper plane.
Slowly and steady, the plane began its campaign.
I closed my eyes, and made a little wish,
The plane flew, like a free bird, unchained.

Hoping the plane will complete its journey,
Quick or slow, a long way without hurry.
All the way, just to see her once,
Just catch the gaze of her eyes, the ultimate jewellery.

If she somehow sees the plane, she might appreciate the art.
This, would warm up the diary, the diary of my heart.

Diary

In the middle of the night, I stared to the dark.
Reading the diary, deep down in my heart.
Feeling like Romeo on stage,
Because you brighten up my page.

Since the first page you appeared in my diary,
You transformed into a holy fairy.
I wish the diary could get thicker each year,
And the main characters remain together, forever.

Listen Children to a story that did happen long ago
In a kingdom within city and the uni-lad below

So I knew her in my second year of uni. After knowing her, I immediately applied to join her ‘army’ team, being the soldier around her. I went so far to an extent that, I went to McDonald’s to work because I knew she worked there. Despite the fact that we worked different shifts (She usually finished at 8am, while I started at 9am), I would literally go to work a couple hours early, just to see her. My manager sometimes said ‘Well, you do not get paid for starting early.’ I would just say ‘Well, I do not really care.’

She studied at university as well, and we were in the same course, and the same tutorial. Sometimes we studied till late, and she would come to my place for food before she went home. My fridge ended up being empty all the time but I wouldn’t really care.

This went on till almost Christmas time. One day, she said to me ‘Ahh I am spending my Christmas alone again this year…’ Maybe I thought about it too much, but I genuinely took it as an implication. Also, I thought ‘Well, it is time for me to resign from the army, and see if I can get further with her.’ So, i asked her to go to the beach on the silent night, and she said ‘Yes.’

At the beach, we lied down and were staring at the stars. At some point, I asked ‘Do you want to be my girlfriend?’, just that, just straight. She smiled, with ‘ha ha’, without saying anything. Well, what does it mean then? But I thought, if I asked further, it might ruined it. So I was like 50-50 about it, not sure about what she thought.

Then, on the 25th, we hanged out then went for a dinner at hers. I asked her again the same question. Her reply was the same, and somehow we just ate and finished the dinner cheerily. I didn’t ask further, I thought she wasn’t sure about it. THEN what?

She went home on the 31st December and said she would spend the new year with her family. Fair enough! But then what? On the new year day, she posted a picture of her and a guy holding hands, with loads of hearts in it. Well, fair enough, I asked her why she did not reject me right away? She said ‘If I rejected you, then you probably would not spend those time with me then.’ Oh… lol…. Well done, playaaa!

Well, once a soldier, always a soldier, she has always been a player and everytime she breaks up, I help her through, while HOPING (realising I cannot) I have a chance. I know I don’t but well, it’s hard anyway. So, once you’ve joined the Goddess’ Army, it’s hard for you to get out.

So what’s next year? I might have more hope on MU winning the Premier League than myself finding a partner.

What’s your view then?

 

Being taken over by The Fear

Lily Allen’s The Fear can probably be crowned The National Anthem of the 21st Century.

‘I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them’

These opening lines cannot be more real. People nowadays don’t give a crap about anything other than money. It’s easy to say we shouldn’t be too materialistic, but it’s hard to put this principle into life. At the end of the day, money means power, and it gives you a very comfortable life. It’s difficult, if not impossible, not to be engulfed by the greed inside us. Again, at the end of the day, ‘I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner’.

‘And I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cause everyone knows that’s how you get famous.’

This is exactly the view of the majority people I believe. We don’t seem to care how we get money, we don’t care about whether it’s ethic to do something in exchange of fame, glory, and eventually money. Is it the correct mindset? I don’t know. Living in a corrupted world, I don’t know what is real, and what I meant to feel anymore.

And here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25QrnxD-NB4 you get to hear the great national anthem of the 21 century.


I do admire Lily Allen’s ability to write lyrics in a very very poetic form (at least to me it is so poetic). But the most important thing, is I think she does write people’s heart. I personally think, she did write a lot that reflects my life. The Fear is one of them, The Littlest Things… ehm… I may probably have encountered something similar.

Well, listening to Lily Allen’s at least gives me some comfort, so I know there are people outside who could still see the truth.

‘Sometimes I find myself sittin’ back and reminiscing,
especially when I have to watch other people kissin
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end’

My first table-tennis league match took place on Tuesday (07/10/2014)

We were facing quite a tough team, with 2 of my opponents who have beaten me before. I still remember, my opponent Rob beat me 3-0 in North of Scotland 2012 (I played him against in April in the local league, and I beat him 3-2), and Andy gave me a hard time, beating me 3-0 in the Aberdeen Christmas tournament.

Since I knew they would be my opponents of the night, all I thought was ‘Oh my goodness, am I going to win a game tonight?’ Aye, my confidence fell to the ground, or possible the nuclear of the Earth…. Andy, of course, was my main threat. Rob was still a challenge for me. All I did was shivering. However, I saw my old teammate Joe playing against his opponents with his determination and spirits, and my new friend Ben, also battling with sweat and tears. Ya, isn’t sport a thing about spirits? Skills of course are crucial. I was unsure about my skill, but I did try hard to improve throughout the summer. Seeing Joe and Ben playing gave me the spirit of trying.

‘Ya, I am here already, I am here to win, and not to forfeit!’ I thought. The first match against an old coach Doug went alright. I kind of saw him play before, so I thought it would be fine. The second match against Rob made me nervous, I would say my first set was kind of lucky, with him making quite many mistakes, and my flicks going pretty well, I got 11-2. I gained a bit of confidence after that, but my doubt about my ability still existed, but in fact it might be one of the elements which helped me stay calm. I won 3-0 straight. Then here came Andy. I still could not play against him well in the first set because of his style, I struggled, and lost 5-11. I was going to give up. However, Joe and Neil’s games lit the fire of my heart again. ‘I am NOT giving up yet, as long as the game is not finished yet, I still have a chance!’ I thought, then I remembered what the Youth Star Christopher Wheeler told me, ‘Take every single point as the last point of a match!’. It did help me concentrate a lot. I fought back, and eventually won the match 3-1 in sets.

Sports are always about techniques, so practice is always important. But there are also other crucial elements. I learnt from this match, that the spirits, and confidence, would boost your performance in matches, sometimes it may allows you to exceed your limits, like 110%! That’s a lesson learned. Sometimes, playing matches is the best way to improve, that’s the reason why. Also, it is a great feeling beating someone whom you have never beaten before!

Playing my old team (got kicked out) next week, strange feeling!

Frustration again

Well, I find it pretty unfair for how some people do things. Ya, I’m kinda expressing my feelings again. And it’s again about the table-tennis thing.

Well, today, I didn’t want to coach the beginners, as I want a real training session, so I booked a table with my friend (he wants to play too). Then we played. Everything went so well, we did the exercises we chose, and i am sure both of us did get some benefits from the session. We were playing just next to the kids’ session side.

At the end of the session, I was told by someone that ‘I hope this does not happen again.’ Well, WTH? Why? What’s wrong with playing table-tennis with my friend? I told you I did want to improve my game! And I didn’t promise that I would do every session! I just don’t understand… Lol I find it pretty unfair…. I basically just played, and I helped with the beginners yesterday already! I said I didn’t really want to coach beginners yet while I still have the qualities and potential to improve! Maybe I can’t be as good as the best one in the Academy, but I do want to do the best I can! Come On!

Difference of playing and coaching

I didn’t really know the difference between playing and coaching before, but now I do know after coaching some real beginners.

First, they require different qualities. Coaches need to be patient, observative, and can always encourage players. They don’t have to be very good players, although it should be better if they are. They don’t need to have a heart to compete, it may be better if they don’t because it can make them calm and be good at observing players in matches. Competitive players, on the other hand, need to be equipped with good skills (not if they just started), and the heart to compete and improve.

Competitive players should definitely have a very strong will to improve, because after a certain age, their improvement will be limited. Once they find that they can hardly improve, they can always do more coaching. Therefore, I believe players should focus on maximizing their improvement while they can. The high-peak of improvement may not be related to age, but the amount of time they have played.

I regret that I didn’t start to play table-tennis when I was young. I only started last year to be honest. I am glad that we won the Aberdeen Local League this year. During the summer, I actually planned to maximize my improvement, but I got allocated to coach the beginners, which wouldn’t help much. I don’t mean that I don’t like coaching, but I do have a strong will to play better in the next season, and i believe the summer is a better time for improvement. I only started last year, I think I do have potential to do a lot better (as good as I possibly can be).

Well, what I would do in summer for table-tennis is…
1) Practise more with those who have a strong will to improve
2) Will keep on coaching, but may sneak to the ‘middle group’ (not beginners) at some point
3) Will visit Drumchapel Table-Tennis at some point to actually see how they do so well in making good players, and may join some trainings there
4) do more physical exercise which would help.
I hope all those would work! Anyway, I am happy that we won the Aberdeen Local League and League Cup! It is the first medal I have got ever!